The Green Monster

I am hopeless. I am doubtful. I am angry. I am confused. I am disappointed. But before I know it, I am slowly eaten away by the green little monster.

As wrong as it seems, I can't seem to get over this insecurity. Maybe its just me, maybe. Maybe the pain of seeing you interested on other things is just a bit too overwhelming for me. Maybe it's the distance you've kept from me that's giving me the illusion of being further away than what I really am. Or maybe it's just the female hormones kicking in again. Just maybe... But whatever the reason may be, this doesn't keep the little green monster from being filled with envy for the ones you have time for and the ones you rather spend time on.

One way or another, this green monster continues to eat me away till I'm no more. As I try to diffuse the explosion, I slowly become a bit more distant from you. I run to my one-way-trip-getaway towards my other love addiction. The green monster slows down and begins to break down, a little at a time as I take in the addiction. In a moments of time, the green monster cease to existence, as I slowly fall down to the aftermath.